Well, this little experiment went differently than I predicted the first time around. I expected to have so much time to write and do projects and be me during nap time, as a fresh, new mom. Whew, did I miss the mark there! Nap time became about surviving: doing laundry, picking up after messes, dealing with the unexpected, planning what was for dinner, distractions. Then came another kid, and another.... and what is nap time??
Okay, so here I am 9 years after starting this blog. My kids are too old to nap, but we've started to re-implement quiet time, which we had also given up a couple years ago. I must say, this is a beautiful time, and my perspective on what "should be done" during that time has drastically shifted. Some recent life events have thrown me and my kids into a new era. Changes are happening, and we have many changes still to come. This keeps me busy; there are a million unknowns, decisions to make, responses to questions, and always something "to do." However, I'm taking that one hour of quiet time and choosing to do self-care. Now, this is not always easy--I'm still training myself--but I'm getting there. The to-do list gets put aside for an hour, and I sometimes just sit, pray, read, journal, listen to podcasts. It's simple and quiet, but necessary... and I like it.
I'm not sure yet what direction I'm going with this blog. Written communication has always come naturally to me, more so than verbal communication. I haven't shared much of my writing, because of insecurity, plain and simple. But, I have a lot I feel I could write about, a bajillion things I have learned over the past 9 years of my life, and so much more I'm learning and experiencing right now, so it's hard to even know where to begin! I'm feeling drawn toward this need to write, so I'm leaping over my insecurities, pushing past the fear, and just plain being Brave.
For now, I'm going to take "quiet time" to ponder each new topic. ;) First act of bravery, pushing the publish button.
